GiLana "eternal Joy"

November 10, 2010
PEACE
Our sweet little one went to be with Jesus. I'm very sad that I will never meet her/him. I miss out on the earthly part of knowing this little creation, but I JOY in knowing that I won't miss out on an eternity of laughter, and kisses, and singing, and dancing, and knowing that this child is PERFECT...already. I hurt in my heart, but I will heal and I will praise Him for knowing me.


I have chosen to give this child a name. I need to have something that I can call her other than 'it' or 'the baby.' I know it doesn't matter, that God had a name for her before time began, but here's my try at it. We chose GiLana. It comes from a Hebrew word that means ETERNAL JOY. Paul likes Lana. Though it doesn't really matter if she is really a girl or not, we went with our feeling. We know and she is really just a precious soul to Jesus anyway. I suppose if my little heavenly baby is really offended she can have the angels call her/him Lane. ;)

I'm blessed by these words that GiLana is realizing today...and forever.

"I will arise.
I will go to Jesus.
He will embrace me, in HIs arms.
In the arms of my dear Savior,
Oh, there are ten Thousand charms."
~Anonymous/Unknown Pub. 1759

"FOr you created me in my inmost being. You knit me together in my mommy's womb.
I PRAISE you because I was fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, I know that full well!
My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.
When woven together in the depths, Your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be." Psalm 139:13-16

I love you my sweet GiLana. We can't wait to meet you again someday in heaven and hold you and kiss you. Time is long for us but short for you. We'll be there soon to experience what you are experiencing now: ETERNAL JOY!
Love you!
Mommy, Daddy and Payton(your BIG brother)

Payton Turned CHOO CHOO!

The cowboy belt Grandpa Rowe made me!

Mommy and Daddy got me a kitchen!

My Hoop!

Happy Birthday to You! Happy Birthday to YOU!

Happy Birthday dear Payton...Happy Birthday to you!

Random Summer-ness

Sky Lodge Camp is a really great camp! It's a really, really, really, really, really. really, really, really , really, really great camp!

A Day on Lake Michigan...in late September!

SHowin off my duds!

This kid can sleep anywhere- or maybe the cubs are just that bad! Naw!

Aunt Jeanne's- Pet ROck aka DOG

Cubs Game with Friends

Daddy being goofy!

My fort!

MY precious boy.

Toot! (ok not really, but it was funny)

My attempt at a garden

Hiding from Daddy!

We found a frog! Payton thought it was funny to put it on his tummy!

He wanted a "MU WAH!" (a kiss)

THis is how it's done folks!

Kansas

Wearing mommy's belt.

Now Grandpa Rowe made me my very own!

It has my name! Hoopin it up with Gma!

Serving cocoa to Great Grandma Papa Randy knows the way to my heart...take me to see the DOG!

Papa's MOOs! I love to make that noise!

Can we say SPOILED?

Train Trip with Mommy

We took a short train trip from Kankakee to Effingham and then rode with friends to Kansas to see Grandma and Papa Randy! Payton LOVED the train. There was absolutely NO sleeping!

Family Camp Summer 2010

YOu can see that Payton is enjoying the ride.

(We didn't even move) :) His favorite summertime activity!
Strollin' with Daddy
My little fish

Boogies

I am so entirely, reidiculously grossed out by boogers, snot, and the like. Anyone who knows me, KNOWS! I gag at the thought of a slimy straggler, or a danling drip. I'm gagging right now just thinkig about it. My own booggers are at best- OK, manageable. Anyone else's are just- repulsive. But....
How then, do I love Payton so much more at the end of today, which I have spent attacking his ever slime-filled nose every time he turns around? It baffles me. I don't even gag- I know, impressive. It's gross, yes, but for some weird reason it doesn't bother me. Don't get me wrong- I don't love it. I'm not ready to become 'queen boogie sucker' but I just don't mind. Once today he even laid his sweet head on my shoulder. As he rested I noticed his 'drippage,' and thought about how icky it was, but decided a little snot on my shirt was well worth it for a little cuddling. It's still there.
My, how my ability to love has changed! I still gag at the thought of anyone else's boogs, but for now, I'll take wiping his, and be SO thankful that it's my job to love him, just like this. :)

March Madness!

One crazy night in the tub! Notice no Water!

Does it really get any better?

I suppose I dress him like this because I know his prep days are numbered.

First OREO cookie!

Dunked it 'till the last crumb crumbled!

G.I. Payton!

Broomball at Sky Lodge- yes that is ice.

Can you blame him? There was a ball out there- he had to go get it.

January and February- TUNDRA

Our day at 1-2-3 JUMP! Tiff is NOT the mother of 3 because of places like this. :) It was enormously fun, but a workout for momma!

Get your SNOW on!....Starting with...well- nto pants.

I said...brrrrr! It's cold outside! You gotta get the right gear on. Take a tip from me and start with your boots and hat. Pants- they're overrated.

I love mom's boots, as you can see, i'm very happy about wearing them.

Snow, Snow and MORE snow!